Ratatouille

Food..hmm..delicious food.

Woo her with food.

I know this place where the angles dine.

and I am certain thats where you should make her your own.

ask her to dinner.

all major events in the history of this universe happened around food.

the last supper,

every wedding celebration,

getting to know someone..the tool used is eating.

so, do not be afraid go home get out your apron and fix your favorite 

recipe of ratatouille 

ask some friends over and do what's important

spend time on relationships!

Do I Settle?

Should I settle for what I think is second best?

mother tells me I have standards to high for even birds to reach.

I do not see myself above him,

but I would love to see him search deep within his soul.

I need him to find what made him who he is.

I want him to go for what his heart truly desires

I need him to stop thinking he cant have what is supposably "untouchable" 

because what does Jesus teach us? but ask and Ye Shall Receive.

Does he really believe all that has been promised....everything from Abraham's time?

The choices we make are ours to live with.

He does not need to explain to me why he did what he chose

I already know that I came first but I cannot accept the way men in this case he 

decided to handle things.

my goodness, one little thing scared him off!

How funny..up until now I went through life thinking women were the sensitive ones..but

its so beautiful to realize how wrong I was.

So, do I settle?

Limited to one....

I dont just want to choose one poem! There are so many good ones although, I want to pick one that is not too short but they seem to be the best ones.

"We Wear the Mask" speaks to me. How many times have we worn a mask? or tried to hide our feelings so that people wouldn't ask as questions or judge us.

Paul Laurence Dunbar wrote a poem titled "Sympathy" which is so sad ;( Paul writes about a caged bird who is practically bloody and bruised from trying to get free!!

It is like a comparison between the writer and the bird, Paul is trying to paint a picture for us, so that we may understand his view.

so here it goes to picking one!!!!!!!!!!!

Jesus.. Holy,Holy,Holy

Its so funny how people can go through similar if not the same events in life. I have had a couple of MAJOR!! issues come up this weekend. And I would like to tell you all that I love my Redeemer Jesus!! He has comforted my aching heart so many times and this time has been no different..if anything His love is more sweeter.

For me learning to trust that God will have His graceful hand over my family is so peaceful!

I was hurt by someone Sunday evening.. and I know the only reason I pulled through was because of my Loving father Jesus Lord!!! 

God continues to remind me that though people in our lives will disappoint and hurt us...HE NEVER WILL. God does many things to glorify His worthy name! So, now I am starting to understand these words... "For not by the Grace of GOD....."  

For not by the grace of God, I would be a thief"

For not by the grace of God, I could be a murder"

For not by the grace of God, I would lust"

..............and the reasons could go on and on... Wether you are aware of this fact, even if your not... We were made to glorify and make famous the name of GOD.. Who He is what He did thousands of years ago on Calvary for "us" sinners who's penalty was death and death alone.

I write all this because these feelings I feel so passionately about..are the bases of good poetry. This is a reminder of how impact-full our beliefs can be when shared through poetry.. Not all the poems presented in the Norton Lit book are religious and that is fine. All I wanted to show was how our entire being can be relatable to other readers.

So, Im in class as I write this..and I am really mad!!! I had a doctors appointment Wednesday and I was not able to be in class. I asked two people to take notes for me and to inform me of what happened in class. UNFORTUNATELY !!!!! I did not get the memo about starting our draft!!!! 

So, this draft is due on Wednesday!!! so now I really have to book it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Poems..Life..Love...All the emotions of this world

Is it not amazing how poems do not have to make any sense?

I mean, All I do, is write my entire soul down on paper..or a web blog..such as this one.

It seems to be 11:19 PM and I cannot sleep..I wish I didnt know why..but I do.

Just when you think things are to good to be true.. brutal life wonderfully shows up!

And when I think I could stick my head in a black abyss of a hole! I realize I can turn to poetry.

I wish I could tell the world that the curse of emotions did not affect me, but I cannot.

I have been haunted with the "gift" of being very sensitive to not only my aura but other peoples spirit.

I sometimes pray I did not know certain people as well as I do.... and that is one of my major reasons of writing poetry.. I dont have to spill my guts out to a family member or to a girlfriend who inwardly gloats at my unfortunate events.. 

So, here is to poetry the leading therapist in my life second to God that is.......

Unrequited "Love"

Unrequited love how could it be.... Unrequited love how could this happen to me.

All my hopes are like dirty feathers on a set of broken doves wings.

Its okay I finally get it...She was easy and you knew I never would be....go ahead use that excuse you know the one..where you pretend to feel inferior to me. All those times I was told that you couldn't see yourself with another at this moment in your life..wow I am truly stupid! How idiotic I amaze myself to be. But I will never blame God for the choices that you  a sissy who goes by the disguise as a man, chooses to make. Dont think I didn't detect the guilty feel of your eyes.... its funny how you couldn't even look at your muse as you introduced her to me...you knew for sure I would lovingly receive her with my open arms, and I surely did..just as any good Christian girl should do. however, You have never seen this side of me and I suggest if you prefer to keep the old image of me...do us both a favor and leave!

LInk to Human Barbie website... real name "Cindy Jackson

http://www.cindyjackson.com/my_cosmetic_surgery2.php#bardot

This is so sad! she looks completely different then she used to ;(

Why?

Why do you care to know my name?

why did you stare at me when I look away 

I remember when my eyes first looked upon you...sitting there gruff and alone.

your clothes were work wear, your  hands sad and tired, but I could tell your heart was on fire for something. Confidence just swam through your movements and the feel of your intense stare stirred within me a longing for security. There was I, certain we had met before..wondering if you recognized me too. Oh how I remember the awkward motions of those mornings.....

Coming back to reality, things are different between the two of us. I am starting to aprecieate the spirit that lives within you. This may sound obscure but tell me again..Why do you care to know my name?

WoW how about that?

How about that class meeting today? Sweet huh?

I had a great time discussing in-depth the assigned poems! Pretty deep stuff...

My favourite by far, is "A Certain Lady"...honestly who has not felt like that? I mean this poem could even relate to men..I know it was written from a woman's perspective but emotions are emotions and people, will be people. I know for sure I have felt deeply for a person who didn't quite view me in the same light, so, to read this poem..really connected with my being.

Barbie Doll....hmmm... I HATED THAT POEM!!! YUCK!!! To act the way this woman did, and to feel that awful about your own body..that you need to distort yourself to be different, is disgusting! I cannot help but imagine what kind of thoughts might have been running through her head. I know for sure that it was a mental thing...she felt mentally defeated, I can assure you and anyone... that things are not as bad as we make them to be.I cant help but think that her mind was a prison.. filled with Satan's lies, I'm sure he was laughing at her... thinking how wonderful it was that he killed off another one of God's children.

As for the poem about Sunday's, I felt the feeling that was trying to be portrayed.. I remember that Saturday's are my absolute FAVOURITE because my sweet lady of a mother, cooks breakfast and creates the most homey, loving atmosphere to wake up to! And when my brothers are home..and my little sister! Then all is perfect in my heart and mind!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!! POEMS =D

Assignments

I dont know about everyone else but I tried to go through the process of this paper the way we were instructed..but I just felt lost during the whole process. I am weary to know my grade, I know I gave my best and I can be happy of that.

I am ready to get onto some poetry though....

So, I finally have some internet connection!!!!!

It seems as though the only place it works is at home!

I couldn't even get online at the SPCC  Campus!  and now I will be staying at another house for a few day's, and...there is no internet connection there either!

so, I am trying to make the best of my limited internet time =D

I really enjoyed our poetry session in class Wednesday, It seems once again that poetry has a unique way of soothing emotions! 

which reminds me...I need to upload my poem! (While I have internet connection) ;)

I completely had to reconstruct my thesis statment... meaning I had to change the rest of my paper to suite it. But I now think I have got a good grip on this paper! 

Extension on Paper

I am so glad we have till Friday if we need it!

Wow its been a really tough trying to put all the right things in my paper =D

I wish we would have gotten some of these points earlier on in this process....I have a couple of days left so I will make the best of them!

I think I need to tweak the Thesis in order to get the paper in focus. Monday I learnt some things in class that I want to apply, I realize that I need to be listing my reasons... which I didn't do.

So, I suppose all in all my paper is good. I just need to polish it a bit. I am really tired of reading A Rose For Emily...and cant wait till our next assignment!!!!!!

How True.........

Its been quite a lesson reading these pages on poetry. 

How true is it that without feeling people find it really quite hard to understand poetry ;(

Our experiences sure can make it easier if we have gone through something similar! But, sadly the depth and beauty of a writers mind can confuse us.... That is why I titled this blog "How True.."  Because, I when I was reading I remember the writer stating that reading poetry is not only a fun activity..But also it really helps in our reading comprehension!

I couldn't think of a nicer and more fun way to learn the English language better, than reading poems!!!!!!!

I also noticed the difference in the first two poems we read. Although they were both about love, they were indeed different from each other.  Jarold Ramseys's poem The Tally Stick, seemed like a more technical type of writing. I guess I much prefer emotional heart wrenching works...Such as How do I love Thee?

YaY I love POETRY!!!!!!!!!!

I hate that I cant make it to poetry this Friday ;(  I am babysitting this week =D

have fun!!!!!!!!!!

How do I love Thee???

OH MY GOODNESS I ABSOLUTELY LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS POEM!!!!!!!!

I have always loved this piece of beauty! Elizabeth Barrett Browning... my my =D

"My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight....." This poem is the very essence of love. No matter how we try we cannot express our love for the people closest to us. And sometimes its just like this poem.

See how many acronyms Elizabeth uses just s0 she can "try" to get us to understand how...why... she loves the way she does. 

You know, most of the time when you know you cannot explain something so deep and beautiful as love, it actually feels right. Okay let me try this another way.... Not being able to explain love or anything else personal to you...actually makes it more beautiful <3 

Anyway..enough of me chasing this rabbit! 

I am exited about this poetry project ;D

see you........

Don't know why Im tell you this.................

So, this week I have been "Dog Sitting" for our Associate Pastor and his wife. They have a Labrador and he is so sweet...his name is Rusty Bean..and he is the colour of golden!!

anyway I was trying to do my homework last night...yeah...and Rusty came because he wanted my attention..I kept telling him NO!!!! but, he did not take NO!! for an answer :( 

Ultimately I put my work aside and spent the next half hour anyway he is such a sweetie =D

he gave me sweet hugs!! Anyway we dont have internet service where were staying...so Im at the coffee corner...trying to get my work done for ENGLISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okie Dokie that was a little useless...but anyway  I will see you tomorrow :D

So, here it goes.......

I am not sure that my paper is the best it can be, I need way more time. But, mother nature has taken its toll and we didn't get to focus on style and editing.

So, since Im not sure if the paper is due on Monday anymore, I am going to act as if our paper is still due Monday to be safe.

I think I might try to flag Ms Frailly down and ask her whats up!

okay so I am still going to be working on it even more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

see you MONDAY!!!!!

Email me if you know anything about our assignment guys =D

That hand out Ms Frailly gave us is absolutely AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It really helped me organize my paper outline! WoW.... so, now I am trying to fill it with good content for my awesome questions...as you can tell, I am very happy at the moment :D

I am ready for tomorrow..I cant wait to get some more great tips for writing...about the reading...I am finding it hard to concentrate on our Othello book.....That kind of english "Old English" is hard to understand.. Looses me fast!!!!!!!!

I think I am understanding the characters in my book better..or maybe I am just a nerd and am getting an unhealthy liking toward reading into people :D

I dont know..but I am still working on my paper and will see everyone tomorrow =D

Paper Paper Paper Paper..........................

I cant believe I actually parted with my unfinished revision and uploaded it!!!!

The more I read "A Rose For Emily" the more I get from this story!

So, I have different ideas all in one paper and I don't know if its as organized or well worded as it should be.

I am so happy that our revision is not our final for this Short Story Project.....because I would definitely fail!!!!! I need more time to nurture this growing paper =D

But it has been so much fun! I love deciphering the meaning of the characters and each move that they make. Why did Emily Kill her father?? Why were the towns people completely ridiculous in there actions toward Miss Emily??

When someone is above you in status it does not mean that they are above you as a person... The towns people should have realized that Miss Emily in her way of dealing with issues was in-fact very much like a child...she had that mind set.

For example the way she dealt with rejection...... by killing her lover....by being unable to say goodbye to her father so she left him rotting in her house... these are things you would assume a child to think of.

Anyway this assignment has been exiting and very interesting!!!! See you all in class THREE HOURS FROM NOW!!!! =D